On expectations, being honest with myself and the New Year

I never intended to update this blog on a regular basis, or have any sort of routine with it. Its something I'm feeling out over time. Something I'm trying to get comfortable with - moreover something I want to be comfortable with.

There, I said it. (That was a note to myself, not to those who may be reading this!)

I really kinda effed my end of the year observances. I didn't do anything during the month of December (except for Christmas, which is a very serious holiday for my husband - the holiday that he connects with his recently passed grandparents in the biggest of ways.) I will however be doing Hogmanay, preparations have already begun.

I'm still a baby at this, ya know? Its only been two and a half years since I watched that documentary on witchcraft, had flash backs of my attempt at tree worship when I was 16 - discovered by my extremely Christian parents - firmly scolded. Flashback over and realizing, "fuck, I'm 22 now! I live 2000+ miles away from them! I can be what I want!"

I do wish I had been a bit more dedicated during this past year, but I'm not going to waste my time with lamenting what I didn't do. Instead, with this strange vigor I picked up right after Christmas I will be gearing myself up for the New Year and setting goals for things I want to accomplish (Thank you Sarah for inspiration!)

Pertaining to all aspects of my life and in no particular order:

• Sew clothing for myself
• Get my very serious garden plans off the ground or rather, in the ground, heh. (weather permitting)
• Learn to make homemade tempeh and tofu
• Actually DO daily devotionals
• Observe all personal High Days (aka: don't be a lazy bastard)
• Make progress with trance work
• Join local Mycological Society
• Enroll in community college for a few classes to get feet wet to explore the possibility of majoring in history
• Provided garden goes well, raw food diet for 2 months during summer (or as long as I can stand it, heh)
• Talk to my grandmothers more often, write to them
• Work more beneficial magic for my family
• Comfortably and casually wear bold rusty-red lipstick
• Make mead!
• Obtain a divers license (tricky one, being I don't own a car)
• Hike regularly in the deep forests east of me
• Learn how to prioritize and manage my time better

That should do it. I may add or subtract from that list. I may have already mastered the wearing of bold lipstick causally.

Gotta fetch whiskey and start the non-existent menu for Hogmanay tomorrow! And, there is the cleaning. Greatly looking forward to making a huge racket when the clock strikes 12.